emotion management

I feel so sorry that I had so many times of mental breakdown today.
My parents. I feel so angry that my mom keeps complaining the coldness in Taiwan but still reluctant to buy a heater, which is not expensive at all.
I am tired I don't understand their logic. They are willing to give me more money to let me spend them unreasonably but they don't want to spend very tidy amount of money to let themselves feel less uncomfortable.

Why being parents. I don't like this kind of attachment. I really hope they can take care of themselves.

I feel bad what I did to my lover. I feel so weak in front of him. I mean I could be stronger in front of my friends.
I don't like the feeling that I am so spoiled that accepting the notion that I like to be protected although this seems the truth.
practice not worry so much. But I am not worried.
I am just each time I saw the slides I recalled the embarrassment. Subconsciously I feel I killed all the barking people.
I have been vowed to become someone I would like to be. But being an actress on podium just never works.
I need to write down the comments (sentences ) for each slide or it never works.